Real Love

Masaya pero hindi parin. kala mo non eto na pero hindi parin pala. pasalamat narin kasi dumating sya nung masaya nako magisa, kumbaga buo nako sa sarili ko.kaso aalis ulit, maiiwan ulit ako, walang kasiguraduhan kung kelan at kung magkkikita man kami ulit.it was a good run sabi nga nila, halfway through sobrang saya.mabibilang ko sa daliri yung mga pagkakataon na hindi kmi nagkasundo, mas madami ung mga tawanang sobrang lakas, mga hirit na parang barkada lang, mga tingin na alam mo na ung ibig sabihin. malabo man kung anong nasa hinaharap, ayos narin, focus on the here and the now sabi nga sa greys anatomy. masaya ako ngayon, sobrang saya. na nakakatakot kung san na naman ako pupupulutin pag alis nya, pero d ko muna yun iintindihin, tska nalang kapag andyan na. sa ngayon, makikinig muna ko sa walang katapusan nyang pagdaldal tungkol sa pagpapalipad ng eroplano, nanotechnology,kotse, science at lahat ng ka-geekan.

i found myself crying while reading this last night. being so far away from him makes me cry like until my tearducts are dry. i miss him so much. and i love him even more. its odd that despite the cultural clashes and religion differences we were so happy together. all the pain that i am feeling right now because we are halfway around the world apart still makes me smile, because its the pain is the only thing that reminds me how much fun we had and that he was real.

--Alexa, Manila